It has been about a week, and my head is as confused as ever. This is my escape, it is public, it is anonymous, maybe, but it is my escape. A place where I can tell the world what I would love to scream. The cry .. it is deep within me.. it is a raging pain. Yet, I forgive, yet, I want your happiness. You treat me with disdain, and with a mockery of what I thought love was. I stand on the edge looking down at myself, what am I to become? My life has reached its crashing point, the finale of this story. It is with complete and utter shock that this unfolds.., there is the part of me that would like to work it, but it is over. Final, and done, I can not stay in this place because the truth is that if I do, I will be so broken, I may never regain the person I could be. Because one rose pinches you, you can not hate all the roses, and because one dream does not come through, does not mean none will. My favorite passage from the book the Little Prince, it is so true. This is not the end, but the beginning, so I will embrace it. Let the karmic wave of life take its flow, and not make me a prisoner of regret, and petty sentiments. Rather, let me rise and be a warrior of life, fight all obstacles in the name of overcoming. To believe with a heart of gold, love with the depth of my soul, and let go.... like the song from Frozen.. Let it go....................................................
I don't care
What they're going to say
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!
It's funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all!
It's time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me I'm free!
Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You'll never see me cry!
Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on!
My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I'm never going back,
The past is in the past!
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on!
My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I'm never going back,
The past is in the past!
My ita says it, once you close a door, you never return to it. The past will become the past, though entwined with the present. I am capable of letting you go, and loving another. It is my heart that clings, while my mind, says LET GO!!! LETTTTTTTTTTTTT GOOOOOOOOOOOOO
How can you love a person that hurt you so deeply, made you mistrust everything about you, made you question who you are, and what you are. In hindsight, I should have known.. and now here I am .. broken and shattered, forgiving and hopeful. Hopeful for my future, free of your pain and toxicity that the only person who will bear it will be in deep sorrow once you remove your mask. But I don not care any more, because that is no longer my cross to bare, so be happy, be free, and just let me be...
