The truth of the matter is that my is heart completely shattered and there are so many parts of it trying to heal, to get back and get put together. This, the length of a long process, this is the process of forgiveness.
What nobody tells you about forgiveness is the fact that the moment you say it, and you truly believe it, however, it's the forgetting that's the difficult part. The continual reminder and that is the difference between humans and animals- that's we can actually remember and that memory and the memories there within you, specially memories of betrayal , memories of hurts; you no longer feel that you can trust this person, you want to trust, you really believe you can trust but deep inside your soul there's a part that's broken and no matter how much you try the heart continues to be broken so you feel like you're drowning and you're living with your pain so deeply inside yourself that you almost lose knowing who you truly are, you lose the memory of who you were, and you question everything that you dreamt when your life continues to be a series of problems and problems and there is no sunshine even when the Sun burns on your skin. Then you have to realize that maybe this path is not the right path, the light is on but you continue.... sometimes some of the decisions of the past we havemade place us on the path,and all the other paths been closed because you made this decision and you made this path so you have to stick on the path because now there is no other path you blocked every other path and you have to continue and continue this way. You feel as you are fading and never becoming this person that you were, you think of that person and they seem like some distant memory.
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